This one is long.... Now as the story(which oddly enough for me, this is a true story) goes on you will understand the title if you watched old transformers. Besides the fact that a lot of crap happened to me over the past couple of years, which life tends to do, I am deeply in depression. The main fact and some reasons I am posting this is to one: Get it off my chest and two: to see if I am so wrong in my thinking. In this day and age in America it is simple fact you need money to have any kind of comfortable living situation. I live in a someone delapadated town, crime here and there, a lot of drugs, few jobs. I do work, but it is difficult to pay bills, typical American middle to low income family deal. Well when my grandfather died in 2008 he left money in funds in the form of an IRA. The "advisor" (i use that term loosely) advised me to be more "aggressive" and put money into stocks... about 3 months later is when the stock bubble said FUCK YOU and i lost about 40% of my money. Later my brother gets a HOT TIP from a friend to put money into a company called Regeneron. So I heed the advice and buy 250 shares at 22 dollars. It was going good, then the stock started falling, I sold at 43dollars a share. Pretty much doubling my money... my stock advisor said OK lets do it. The stock is now at 266 dollars a share.... If I sold now. I would have made over 60,000 dollars profit. If i waited WHO THE FUCK KNOWS HOW MUCH MORE!!!!! as an old saying goes.... "Money I don't make is money I lose." Something like that will not come again. Now the reason this depresses me is I need a new car and mainly as a pessimistic I contribute my monetary funds to my "lifeblood" being that as when I run out of money I will completely lose my desire to give a fuck. I don't fully know if this thinking is out of the ordinary. Being a pessimistic I don't really see a future for myself other than being bluh without money.... I am going to college but even that is a bit depressing.... I told the main bits of this story to a co-worker and said how that money would of revitalized my lifeblood.... saying "Starscream... we need more regeneron cubes." in which case he dubbed me Negatron. So in conclusion.... In America, can you be a pessimist and be happy without money?