Darkmatter
Battle God
I'm starting to lose care. Everyone is constantly down my throat regarding my emitonas or ''emo'' and just all the bullshit I've been dealing with lately. I hate pressure, I'm getting bickered by my own friends to stop it now, that's ow ban It's gotten. Everyone hates emotions, right? No one cares about anything, so why should I care? Why do I care if people hate me for it, it just doesn't seem right that I get called out for every little thing I do every single day I poast here, and lately It's been getting the better of me..
Emotional problems? Everyone has them, I help people with theirs. Galatia inspired me to do it, not intentially, but the way she helped me with my problems, like a mother, I figured I could use my liking for helping people as a tool to help people eve more then I usually do. I'm at the line now, I cared, and got yelle dat for it, and called out, and my name mentioned in every other thread, and my real life friends angering me for every little thing I do on this site baased on caring. I'm thinking about not caring anymore. Maybe that will solve all the problems and everyone will be happy.
Not like that matters. I've thought about leaving in the past two weeks, due to this same, growing problem each day. I was always stopped by someone I helped out, or befriended, and that stopped me from making a huge, emotional goodbye thread for good, many many times. I'm sick of being called out for such things as being emotional. I really am, I've put up with everyones
complaints about me, like spam, emotional, and spreading emotions to everyone I talk to. I'm so sick of it..
How can this happen? All because I care? I've never posted my emotional problems and asked for help. I posted some emotional problems once or twice, but I never asked for help or assistance in dealing with them. And when I try this to those I care for, I get yelled at for it, everytime. And I'm really sick of it. I might just not care now. Close Trillian forever and just post 5 posts a day and not give a care about anyone or anything relating to this site. I'm sure that would make quite a few people happy, wouldn't it?
And again, the recent troubles can be blamed on me. If I wasn't such a caring person, I would have told everyone to leave me alone, and I wouldn't have helped anyone with anything, and the Asylum might be a little different, save all the emotional threads. The people who asked me for help would find it else where, so who really cares? My help Isn't that great, I do what I can and make great friends this way. Everyones down my neck about it, so I might just change and not care anymore. Maybe I'll just slow down on posting too, spam would reduce because all I do is spam every fourm and every thread to get 4700+ posts in the course of a few months, right? Maybe I won't open Trillian anymore to talk to people I care about on here. Maybe I'll just quit and never do anything again. Ever. I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry for caring. I think I'll just stop caring.
Emotional problems? Everyone has them, I help people with theirs. Galatia inspired me to do it, not intentially, but the way she helped me with my problems, like a mother, I figured I could use my liking for helping people as a tool to help people eve more then I usually do. I'm at the line now, I cared, and got yelle dat for it, and called out, and my name mentioned in every other thread, and my real life friends angering me for every little thing I do on this site baased on caring. I'm thinking about not caring anymore. Maybe that will solve all the problems and everyone will be happy.
Not like that matters. I've thought about leaving in the past two weeks, due to this same, growing problem each day. I was always stopped by someone I helped out, or befriended, and that stopped me from making a huge, emotional goodbye thread for good, many many times. I'm sick of being called out for such things as being emotional. I really am, I've put up with everyones
complaints about me, like spam, emotional, and spreading emotions to everyone I talk to. I'm so sick of it..
How can this happen? All because I care? I've never posted my emotional problems and asked for help. I posted some emotional problems once or twice, but I never asked for help or assistance in dealing with them. And when I try this to those I care for, I get yelled at for it, everytime. And I'm really sick of it. I might just not care now. Close Trillian forever and just post 5 posts a day and not give a care about anyone or anything relating to this site. I'm sure that would make quite a few people happy, wouldn't it?
And again, the recent troubles can be blamed on me. If I wasn't such a caring person, I would have told everyone to leave me alone, and I wouldn't have helped anyone with anything, and the Asylum might be a little different, save all the emotional threads. The people who asked me for help would find it else where, so who really cares? My help Isn't that great, I do what I can and make great friends this way. Everyones down my neck about it, so I might just change and not care anymore. Maybe I'll just slow down on posting too, spam would reduce because all I do is spam every fourm and every thread to get 4700+ posts in the course of a few months, right? Maybe I won't open Trillian anymore to talk to people I care about on here. Maybe I'll just quit and never do anything again. Ever. I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry for caring. I think I'll just stop caring.
