[jd-inflames]

Now, I am 17 and meet the best part of me, Tisha. It happened so suddenly, yet it was just so…right. We were happy for so long, until one October I decided to stray. This was one of those lessons which I am grateful for receiving, but am still very distraught about. I let my best friend, Daniel’s, girlfriend go down on me. It didn’t happen just once, but 3-4 times. I’m thinking 3 times before he found out, then once more after he found out. I still question to this day why this happened, but some things I suppose I will never know. Out of respect for him I promised that I would never tell a soul, not even my fiancé, Tisha. Well, I was smoking pot again, more than ever actually. My manic had come back, and I was far from happy. Thoughts of prior mistakes had completely filled my brain and I couldn’t live it down. I feel it was a good thing though, because I had had other girls try to get in my pants but I never allowed it. If it wasn’t for her making me disgust myself, I would have probably kept going. But she made me teach myself loyalty, something that has stuck with me.

A little under a year, I had finally had enough of Tisha. I broke up with her for what I thought would be for good. I had started talking to my old friend Tasha again, and then something happened. I experienced the happiest I could ever be. My old friend and I started experiencing feelings for one another, and we both seem to be very happy, yet confused. Still, it was the best time of my life. When I was with her, all of my problems and all of my worries went away. She was my morphine so to speak. Of course, I ended it for myself. I got back together with Tisha. I decided to not give myself the chance to fall for another and got back with her. Yet, the whole time I resented myself for ending something so good. It made me feel even worse whenever I talked to Tasha, because she would remind me that I should have stayed with her, which I should have.

Well, 3 months had passed, and Tisha decided she was through with me. Then I find out that she had been sleeping with my best friend Daniel. I suppose you get what comes around, but I had been stabbed in the back by the two people I care for the most. I tried my hardest to get over Tisha, at any cost, but times were hard. All I wanted was Tasha back, without causing further problems with anyone else…